Friday, April 28, 2006

Kabhi kabhi mere dil me khayal aata hai

Which is my favorite colour? It was red yesterday, its black today. What is my favorite food? It was North Indian yesterday, its Chinese today. What is my favorite passtime? It was writing poetries yesterday, its painting today. Which is my favorite movie? Many movies are my favorite, but the composition of these basket of movies also change very often. Kabhi kabhi mere dil me khayal aata hai ki kya mein bahut moody hoon? Is it being fickle? Or is it just changing with times? There is a lot of difference in the way different people look at it. Some call it flexibility and adaptability, which is basically saying that this moodiness is good. Most are not able to comprehend these changes in my likes and dislikes and call me very-very moody, which is basically saying that its a negative trait. Even though I would like to go with the first group of people, kabhi kabhi mere dil me khayal aata hai ki what if the second group of people are right? Am I really that moody? Do I hurt people when they assume that I like paav bhaji and then I tell them that its no longer my favorite dish? I guess I do. So now I have stopped telling people what I like and what I don't. I just go by what they think I am, what they think my likes and dislikes are. Which means, I am not revealing my feelings to anyone. But then, thats the best I can do to not hurt people. I am sure I am not alone. There are many like me who face the same problem. I don't know how they deal with it. May be they are more straight forward and express themselves. I cannot. But basically, the point that I am trying to make is that why has everything in this world become so defined? Why do all of us want to know everything about everyone else? And once we do know a few things, why do we assume that those things are for eternity? When the winds of change are rocking the entire world, businesses, economies, relationships, why is it that if we change our likes and dislikes often (according to our state of mind) its termed as something negative?